You represent triumph
To me you represent joy
You represent the familiar
As I tremble on the edge of a void
You remind me of the girl I once was
Both shy and desperately deep
The girl whose mind spun poems
Even when she couldn’t sleep
The girl so in touch with her art
That she drew every chance she had
A pensive soul out of her element
And yet she didn’t feel bad
You represent the camaraderie I miss
Shared hobbies and a rhythmic soul
You represent a piece of what I wanted to be
Before life began to take its toll
You represent something unattainable
Something I thought I never deserved
You represent all of my biggest fears
All the times I lost my voice
You represent times I stayed silent
Because I did not think I had a choice
You represent a past I am still processing
Though I doubt you really care
Our interaction is sporadic
A mostly one-sided affair
You symbolize more than I would have imagined
And maybe that’s all you are
A living breathing symbol
That I can mull over from afar.